Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
|2011 tornado, Alabama|
- A literally translated fear: tornadoes. And I'm not really sure why. I have tried to remember something that scared me - a newcast, tv show, personal friend who experienced a tornado, but it just doesn't seem to make logical sense. But I am terrified of tornadoes. Funny enough, when I planned to visit my friend in Alabama, I was trying to schedule around the height of "tornado season" only to leave a few weeks after the worst tornadoes tore up the communities surrounding her house and workplace. The devastation was dramatic. One I'll never forget. Then the Joplin tornado hit while I was there visiting with her!
Want to hear something strange? I used to have nightmares about tornadoes semi-frequently and the oddest part was the tornado would always hop over the house I was living in. It would tear a clear path right up to my house, only to jump right over it and keep going on the other side. I think it was God's way of telling me to let this go, He's got me covered.
- I'll die in a slow and pain-filled way. Even as a pre-teen, I've always been afraid of "pain and illness." Isn't that ridiculous? I don't want to have something that will drag on and make me someone I'm really not. Again, I really don't know how this fear came about. I did have grandparents in the nursing home, but this fear was there well before that happened. So where the heck did this come from?? *sigh* I'm just weird.
- That I'm not good enough. I'm not good enough to venture into selling my ideas, my crafts, etc. I don't have the chops to measure up to others, my skills aren't quite good enough, someone else is always better. I sell myself short frequently and I know I've been doing it forever. Since high school when I was too afraid to go out for drum corps. I could have totally made it but I had convinced myself there was no way possible I'd get in. So I didn't try. I see myself dragging my feet everyday, defeated before I even start.
So there are my fears for a Thursday in August. What uplifting conversation - maybe this isn't the best idea I've ever had?? Hrm. Oh well, I'm knee deep into it now! :)
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