Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.
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| 2011 tornado, Alabama |
- A literally translated fear: tornadoes. And I'm not really sure why. I have tried to remember something that scared me - a newcast, tv show, personal friend who experienced a tornado, but it just doesn't seem to make logical sense. But I am terrified of tornadoes. Funny enough, when I planned to visit my friend in Alabama, I was trying to schedule around the height of "tornado season" only to leave a few weeks after the worst tornadoes tore up the communities surrounding her house and workplace. The devastation was dramatic. One I'll never forget. Then the Joplin tornado hit while I was there visiting with her!
Want to hear something strange? I used to have nightmares about tornadoes semi-frequently and the oddest part was the tornado would always hop over the house I was living in. It would tear a clear path right up to my house, only to jump right over it and keep going on the other side. I think it was God's way of telling me to let this go, He's got me covered. - I'll die in a slow and pain-filled way. Even as a pre-teen, I've always been afraid of "pain and illness." Isn't that ridiculous? I don't want to have something that will drag on and make me someone I'm really not. Again, I really don't know how this fear came about. I did have grandparents in the nursing home, but this fear was there well before that happened. So where the heck did this come from?? *sigh* I'm just weird.
- That I'm not good enough. I'm not good enough to venture into selling my ideas, my crafts, etc. I don't have the chops to measure up to others, my skills aren't quite good enough, someone else is always better. I sell myself short frequently and I know I've been doing it forever. Since high school when I was too afraid to go out for drum corps. I could have totally made it but I had convinced myself there was no way possible I'd get in. So I didn't try. I see myself dragging my feet everyday, defeated before I even start.
So there are my fears for a Thursday in August. What uplifting conversation - maybe this isn't the best idea I've ever had?? Hrm. Oh well, I'm knee deep into it now! :)
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#3 sounds so much like me. The only ones who can stop us from doing something is ourselves. I was listening to an audio motivation thing yesterday and one of the things that was said was you have to change how you talk to yourself, that little voice. My little voice is a tough one and they said that you would never talk in that voice to a child. Change how you talk to yourself - be encouraging, and positive! With time, that little voice will BE the one cheering you on! I know mine has. I AM ROOTING FOR YOU!! :)
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